Time for me to step aside.

Wow, who knew this break could be this dramatic for me? I never realized that I cared so/(that) much until now. I've been so caught up with my first reactions I let everything take the best of me. Someone helped me stop to look at myself and recognize that I'm not doing so well. I compared myself then and now and I'm amazed at how badly I've changed. I had so many motives in the past to become a better Christian in my walk with God, but I guess I began to look at others than myself.

"These people say they are mine. They honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. And their worship of me is nothing... (Isiah 29:13)"

I'll admit I do criticize and judge others of what I think is wrong, but actions do speak louder than words; My actions haven't proved that I've been doing any well as them.

"Why worry about a speck in your friend's eye when you have a log in your own? How can you think of saying to your friend 'Let me help you get rid of that speck in your eye' when you can't see past the log in your own eyes? Hypocrite! first get rid of the log in your own eye; then you will see well enough to deal with the speck in your friend's eye.(Matt. 7:1-5)"

I'm a sinner myself and I know I'm not perfect. It's just sometimes I need to realize that I need to help myself out before I can help others because in God's eyes I would be a hypocrite.
Things aren't going so well with me. I need to get my act together. I'm lost again. When I finally felt like I was on the right path, right then my direction kinda shifted and lead me to where I'm at right now.
I'm convinced that you're not my problem anymore. I got your back to the fullest, but I think I'm finished going through whatever it is to help you. You're an adult, you're my ate, I'm just gonna wait till you figure everything out on your own. As much as I do want to help you, I need to help myself first.

-BTW, Thanks,for helping me realize the things I couldn't see for myself. <3

Miracle - Paramore