wsup, playa ?

I was hella trippin', but now I see where I stand. You're exactly like your brother & that really is not cuttin' it for me...well that's until I start to see more of you and less of your bro. Until then... NEXT !(:

So today was the last swim meet; I hella regret missing all those meets before though -__- but its all good. Next week for sure I'm going to the PALs. Haha, okay so this year everyone got thrown into the pool ! It was so funny ! Heather was like the first ! then she came back out and grabbed me :( lmfao When I thought about it, last year, I HERRA bounced right when the meet ended because I wasn't even close to anyone to be throwin' me in the pool. HAHA. but today was hella good times. I better see some pictures in the year book(;


Peace.

Trippin'..

..But not fallin'.

Damn, I can't be doing this.

What's good ?...God's good.

Crackin' week in the 'V' with my roll dawgs. Ken came home from the Philippines Friday night. Saturday he slept in most of the day while ate dhey was at work and me and Tiff took care of the boys and helped Auntie and Ninong go grocery shopping. Later, we went to Delo's party for a little bit, *Aheeem* is hella hott(; dilf tho? EHEHEEK haaay !
The next day Tiff hella got a makeover, but she got in trouble by my dad. -__- Hella got put on blast at Uncle Dodo's though; just because she didn't tell him? She's 18 ! Chill out, Daddy O. I heard my mom tried to back her up, but my dad just wasn't taking it. Oh when we got home from Vallejo I got yelled at too so i was pretty pissed. Today, I woke up and I missed my family. Tiff took Bart to school because my dad says he doesn't want tiff using him anymore? Whatever the heck that means. OH I made Varsity Cheer! Hella happy ! Hmmm.. I suppose Tiff will take Bart home later too since she's grounded and then we'll all be home safe, God willing. Oh and dad will still be pissed, but whogaf ?(;

* Sistah sistah ! Tiff's hot ! holla holla holla holla !

ya herra lah meh<3

*Muah, everyday though? i'm hella lovin' it.

No more try outs for cheer, so I'm not as busy anymore -__- but it's all good. praying that when the results come in, I'm in ! Aaah !




Heeewla hurrt, but oh so catchy O.o

SLEEPY FUCKIN D - SLEEPY D

not the business.

I don't know why, but I'm hella crying.

Happiness - The Fray

Superstar.

Wtf, so i love how hella people come up to me saying "SO LIKE O-M-G, AMEE !"
So i suppose, HELLA people know about our videos now though ? HAHAH. We're gonna be famous on youtube someday. Come see us one time(;
Holla !

E-L C-A M-I N-OOOOOO

What's good with cheer though ?

I really do need a job though to atleast help my mom out. I hope it happends ! hella crossing my fingers. Try outs start next monday ! Yaaay ! :D

ohh shaa !

*Ocean Beach at 6:30 in the AM ?

Goodbye, Spring Break... Even though you haven't done me much this last week, but its all good-- I kinda wish it didn't have to end. Like I suspected, my break wouldn't be as crackin' until the end and it was ! Youth and Family paid off for all the lazy boring days spent at home. -___- But also, somewhere along the line of this useless week, I found myself meditating a lot and spending my time with God, which was pretty good. I had ups and downs this week but I'm glad I ended it with happiness.
Boo for school tomorrow. Still need to shower, get my thangs ready, then I guess phone for LESS than ten minutes because that's what I promised KK !(;
So, no more drama. Me and the anonymous Mr. --, don't talk anymore because that's how I want it to be. I found out a lot of crazy information about this guy to realize that it's not worth sticking with. & I would certainly not like to have my label back when I just finished phasing it off. Aha, for the first time in forever I kinda felt sad that night, but the next morning I ran into someone pretty cute, then odd to say I was all good ! Not to mention seeing my family and youth made things absolutely better too! I guess I found my remedies.
I'm out for the night. peace.

Pressure (acoustic) - Paramore

(3:19:34 AM): but i wont be able to sleep tonight, wondering what you feel?

I hate dilemmas. onelilcrazypnay (2:53:15 AM): no drama intended. I suppose I'm a magnet for that ish. -___-

Time for me to step aside.

Wow, who knew this break could be this dramatic for me? I never realized that I cared so/(that) much until now. I've been so caught up with my first reactions I let everything take the best of me. Someone helped me stop to look at myself and recognize that I'm not doing so well. I compared myself then and now and I'm amazed at how badly I've changed. I had so many motives in the past to become a better Christian in my walk with God, but I guess I began to look at others than myself.

"These people say they are mine. They honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me. And their worship of me is nothing... (Isiah 29:13)"

I'll admit I do criticize and judge others of what I think is wrong, but actions do speak louder than words; My actions haven't proved that I've been doing any well as them.

"Why worry about a speck in your friend's eye when you have a log in your own? How can you think of saying to your friend 'Let me help you get rid of that speck in your eye' when you can't see past the log in your own eyes? Hypocrite! first get rid of the log in your own eye; then you will see well enough to deal with the speck in your friend's eye.(Matt. 7:1-5)"

I'm a sinner myself and I know I'm not perfect. It's just sometimes I need to realize that I need to help myself out before I can help others because in God's eyes I would be a hypocrite.
Things aren't going so well with me. I need to get my act together. I'm lost again. When I finally felt like I was on the right path, right then my direction kinda shifted and lead me to where I'm at right now.
I'm convinced that you're not my problem anymore. I got your back to the fullest, but I think I'm finished going through whatever it is to help you. You're an adult, you're my ate, I'm just gonna wait till you figure everything out on your own. As much as I do want to help you, I need to help myself first.

-BTW, Thanks,for helping me realize the things I couldn't see for myself. <3

Miracle - Paramore

I do believe I'm a genius.

BTW - I freaking love my cousin because she's hella wise even tho she irritates me. LOL peep her latest post, April 7 2009:

http://truel0vewaits.blogspot.com

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Aww, Desiree loves me enough to mention me in her blog(; howla howla howla.

Well hopefully today is filled with plans. I'm feeling better because I can breathe through my nose now LOL.

Dude, spring break is not crackin' ! Hahah its Wednesday already and I haven't done anything spectacular. Started out strong and is slowly dying out. No bueno, on the real. Well I think I'm going to take a walk with my mom because I'd rather go with her than 'happening to run into someone' at the park with Tiff and Jerett -__- Your ish is weak, you think I never played that same game before? haha Ugh ! I'm being the ultimatest hater ever ! I kinda need to lay low on that because it's not very good. Its not my full intent to say something aloud. LMFAO okay, i'm finished. i guess I'm heading out now ?

Good day, mate.

(3:09:51 AM): goodnight sweet dreams pretty lady.

I have mix emotions today. A whole lot of being lazy and sick, a tint of being satisfied, but you know I'm never really content with anything, oh and being pissed as ever !
Idk. Maybe these are the results of staying home and not doing anything but watching TV and doing nothing but nothing on the Internet. I need a life ! ha ha For sure, spring break this year is not the business. I'm sure I'm not going to be making my way to Sac, but I'm still trying to go to Vallejo since its half as close.

Okay, back to not being satisfied. I was going through my Bible this morning and I starting to read what I highlighted in Ecclesiastes. I read chapters 1 and 2 to find that everything was so blunt ! but oh so true ! "No matter how much we see, we are never satisfied. No matter how much we hear, we are not content. (Ecclesiastes 1:8)" I don't think there has ever been a time in my life where I felt like I was in the positions to say I was fully complacent. "But as I looked at everything I had worked so hard to accomplish, it was all so meaningless--like chasing the wind. There was nothing really worthwhile anywhere. (Ecclesiastes 2:11)" Yeah, I merely had days when I said I was at ease and happy but when the next day came it was another cycle of wanting to be fine again. Sometimes I felt that my life was useless and it had no meaning. Well, I knew my life had a meaning but I couldn't clearly see what it was. I guess you can say to this day its not crystal clear for me to understand exactly what God intends for me to do. But as I was reading, I realized that sometimes God puts us in positions where we feel distressed or restless to test our faith.
Since barely anything consumed my time, I began to examine myself. Honest to say I'm not doing well in my walk with God. I saw that I didn't put God in the complete center of my life. I tend to try to find happiness without His help because sometimes I feel independent enough that I can do things on my own. In the long run I never get what was my intention haha because that's how it always is for me, but as I look back I try to restrict myself from doing the same impediment decisions. Someone told me that our faith shouldn't be based on rules and restriction, but its with making the right decisions.
I know this book in the Bible wasn't meant to bring you down because if you read on it teaches you that you should live your life as happily and joyfully as possible with having God the center of everything. Without Him in our decisions in life we would be useless--Like chasing the wind. Aha I guess it makes you think twice when someone gives you encouraging words saying that.

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FML.
I can't frickin breathe. Am I sick or are these allergies? geez louise ! I've gone through like a whole box of Puffs today and still going.

It's a Monday night and the whole gang is here, starting with Serendipity and Gossip girl. Oh what's really good ?

I'm too lazy to write more so I'll write tomorrow. Peace

Bottomless Party ?

--Nah, not really but Joshy's was pretty coo. I layed off the dranks for the night just because I wanted to stay sober, but too bad the source didn't feed for all.
Ritz came over after school and we got all prettied up for some breeeyuhs, but too bad we already knew most of the dicks there ! There weren't hella hella cuties like we expected, Okaay, but there was a couple. Aha got to Joshy's at 6 then chilled there until the rest of the gang came through.
Mia, Marielle, Hannah, Rheaanne, Ritz, Patricia, ane me were like the party girls ! Haha without us, dancing wouldn't be as crackin'. After, someone turned on the lights, and a few of the boys started to box. Aha everyone was hyped up like a Pacquiao fight though. Ritz and I left around 1030 and I guess from then on out the party ended? I had fun ! Hella good way to start off my Spring Break ! But Homeboyee-- What's really good this week ?