womp.

Back to listening to Secondhand Serenade....

Suprises.

Same crap, different person each time.
But, I'm hoping this ones different from the rest.

its crazy.

My week has been filled with so many ups and downs. but of course, I still want to praise God.
I'm not sure of how I'm feeling right now though.
I've been praying for my sister for so long. I told myself i would just step aside and let God do his work, but I totally just bursted today. I'm not exactly sure of how she took it. I'm glad that all my feelings that were bottled up about her were out there, but i guess i'm just afraid of hurting our relationship.
I'm really just praying for the best.

Lord, I need you so much right now !

Lord, I'm praying that you work within my family and bring them back to you like what you did to me.

"Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need."

Hebrews 4:16

One Desire - Hillsong

Lord I'm amazed by You.

I'm really happy I got to go to CGCF's Youth Retreat this year. Pretty much have to give props to "My favorite Cousin Ever", Jeremy. He really encouraged me to go and I'm pretty sure without him I wouldn't have gone :( but anyways.
This weekend was so much fun ! I really didn't want the retreat to end. I got to meet new people, and bond with my brothers and sisters in Christ.

I haven't felt so close to God in so long ! I really really do love this feeling of coming back home happy and so filled with God. I was super emotional at the retreat. I began to think of important people in my life who I wish would have came.
I learned a lot about trusting in God and letting him lead the way in my life because a lot of times I choose to do things on my own. (twin, I know I didn't say this in our break out group, sorry aha.) I kinda related to Rachel's testimony when she said she was trying to look for happiness in love and friends and what not. & there have been multiple times where I thought that boys, friends and fun could make the worries go away. I always tried to look for love in all the wrong places, or spent most of my time with friends to help alleviate the emptiness I had.
"Give all your worries and care to God, for he cares about you." (1 Peter 5:7)
At the retreat is where I realized that what could have filled that emptiness inside of me was in front of me all along. It was God.
I didn't truly put all my trust in Him when I should have. I prayed for him to give me guidance, but I don't think I completely put my heart into it when I knew that I should have.
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understandings; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." (Proverbs 3:5-6)

I learned that to trust God is to give your all even when you don't understand why you're in icky situations. Trusting in Him is leaning on him and knowing that he won't ever let you down because God knows our future and knows whats right for us.
Now all glory to God, who is able, through his mighty power at work within us, to accomplish infinitely more than we might ask or think. (Ephesians 3:20)

How about a round of applause.

Give it up to the best team that made me cry when I usually don't.
Hoo rah for parents ! -__-
Wow, I usually don't cry when someone yells at me unless I'm super pissed, but its just the fact that one parent after the other keeps yelling at me about things that I don't know the answer to.
Omg, and its so rare that my dad yells at me ! Wow, it's not that I'm pissed right now because I'm not; I'm still pretty absorbed in the fact that I get to go to Youth Camp. It's just it would be nice if you turned down your tones a couple noches. K thanks !

Memorial Day

"I am the resurrection and the life. Anyone who believes in me will live, even after dying. Everyone who lives in me and believes in me Will never ever die."
John 11:25-26